Healing
As I was reading Mark 3, I got that moment when you just stop and wonder. An AHA! moment. Here it is in Verse 3:
10For He had healed so many that all who had distressing bodily diseases kept falling upon Him and pressing upon Him in order that they might touch Him.
I stopped reading and tried to imagine what it would be like for Jesus. Here was, going from town to town and performing many miracles of healing and deliverance from demons. As the word spread about Him, the number of people seeking his healing swelled to such a number that he had to have a boat ready so that he wasn't crushed by the crowd (see verse 9).
Can you imagine it? He would be waking down the street with people shouting out his name in order to be heard. They were desperate and they probably didn't care who they pushed out of the way to get to Him. The crowds must have been suffocating, being pressed on every side with hands grabbing at Jesus' garments, touching and grasping at His body. Every imaginable smell in the heat and dust of the day was most likely assailing his nostrils.
And why? Because they were desperate. Desperate for what? His healing touch, His healing words.
It then struck me that they were not seeking that relationship with Him. They just wanted something from Him. It was not what He was, but what He could do for them.
Then I searched in my mind for my relationship with Jesus. And I realized that I was so desperate for the healing in my soul and in my life, that I was like that crowd, pressing and pushing and seeking just a touch from Him. It wasn't the relationship I was looking for, it was the Healing. It was after the healing that the relationship started.
And what a relationship He offers! I look back in time and see that what I thought was the everything, was just the beginning of the unimaginable friendship that I have with my Healer, Redeemer and Deliverer.
How about you? Are you searching for the Healing alone, or are you yearning for the relationship?